Hey there stranger, you doing ok?

It's been a long long time. 14 years.
Covered in dust and spider webs eh?
Still find it funny and cringy reading my blogs.

While I am reading my blogs all the way to the oldest post, looking back my life and look at me now.

I still love listening to music, it sometimes speaks out my mind and live other lives for me.

I still love art, and I recently pursue it into full time artist now.

I still miss the girl, but in different ways now. 

(She appears in my dreams, way too many times, always in nights I don't expected)

(Thought it was a curse before, but I choose to believe it is my Anima and she try to tell me something wearing her image in my dream)

I don't plan to update my blog today actually, just for fun because why not?

Take this as a mini update of a dusty personal blog.

So yeah, the friends I mentioned before in my blogs there?
Emmm, I stopped contacting with them since the mid of my college time, around 2015.

Why? Well. Maybe it is my ego, my pride, my own belittleness on myself. 
I just don't like to be with them again, because it will remind me of how small I am compared ti them.

So I use some reasons to justify my boycott on them like how bad they treat a person. It was really bad, to me.

I noticed what happens in me, I decided to look straight into it and solve it.

14 years, from 2012 to 2026. Shits happen, Greats happen.

Sometimes I feel like to die. Sometimes I feel like I am glad to live to witness it.

Guess this is how a world feels like. Roller coaster on and on. Battles within self.

Don't give up the battle, fight it with your pace. Treat yourself better.

And oh, I also discovered that I am a person that seeks validation and acknowledgement from outside. So I am doing my best to be the one that do that to myself, only me knows the best of me.

Now I have fiancee, the new home of ours still under construction. She is the best girl I ever meet and she is my best friend, she accepts a fully me, very grateful of this. Not everybody can do this.

Talking about my Anima, she wore the girl's image again, confronted at me like I never been before, in my dream.

我 喜欢 /   /   /  时 光 机
(I love time machine)

3 slashes was drawn on some name.

Guess my Anima wants me to look forward in life, no more straying in past times.