Hey there stranger, you doing ok?

It's been a long long time. 14 years.
Covered in dust and spider webs eh?
Still find it funny and cringy reading my blogs.

While I am reading my blogs all the way to the oldest post, looking back my life and look at me now.

I still love listening to music, it sometimes speaks out my mind and live other lives for me.

I still love art, and I recently pursue it into full time artist now.

I still miss the girl, but in different ways now. 

(She appears in my dreams, way too many times, always in nights I don't expected)

(Thought it was a curse before, but I choose to believe it is my Anima and she try to tell me something wearing her image in my dream)

I don't plan to update my blog today actually, just for fun because why not?

Take this as a mini update of a dusty personal blog.

So yeah, the friends I mentioned before in my blogs there?
Emmm, I stopped contacting with them since the mid of my college time, around 2015.

Why? Well. Maybe it is my ego, my pride, my own belittleness on myself. 
I just don't like to be with them again, because it will remind me of how small I am compared ti them.

So I use some reasons to justify my boycott on them like how bad they treat a person. It was really bad, to me.

I noticed what happens in me, I decided to look straight into it and solve it.

14 years, from 2012 to 2026. Shits happen, Greats happen.

Sometimes I feel like to die. Sometimes I feel like I am glad to live to witness it.

Guess this is how a world feels like. Roller coaster on and on. Battles within self.

Don't give up the battle, fight it with your pace. Treat yourself better.

And oh, I also discovered that I am a person that seeks validation and acknowledgement from outside. So I am doing my best to be the one that do that to myself, only me knows the best of me.

Now I have fiancee, the new home of ours still under construction. She is the best girl I ever meet and she is my best friend, she accepts a fully me, very grateful of this. Not everybody can do this.

Talking about my Anima, she wore the girl's image again, confronted at me like I never been before, in my dream.

我 喜欢 /   /   /  时 光 机
(I love time machine)

3 slashes was drawn on some name.

Guess my Anima wants me to look forward in life, no more straying in past times.

26 days left

The chance to change my entire future is coming soon

There is nothing we can do but to face it with our strong mind , unfortunately i don't have the kind of thing ...
My mind is not strong enough , to make my dream to be true , although i know that what this words" working hard can make your dream be true " trying to tell us

But
I'm afraid
n worrying

Am i working hard , then my dream will be real in my life ...?

the answer is ( that will be what you are thinking )

My question is still not answered with a perfect modern answer



WELL
now is 1.19 A.M.

Only the few hundreds of hours
my chance is coming to face us
now i really can't concentrate my mind on my studies WTFF

sometimes i'm jealous that why they could do what i can't do .....
they get the higher marks than mine
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

now I'm emo because of the result of the trial
without the tips of it , i think i will get the worse 1
i tried , but so many problems i gonna solve


1.22 A.M.
ANSWER : THE LAZINESS

the toughest n biggest enemy of mine
If i'm not defeat it , i will be died
i'm seriously
FUCK LAZINESS

sometimes i wanna suicide
to get the thing out of my body , my mind , my soul n my heart
IT IS SO FUCKING ANNOYING
as you can see , my mind is still weak to overcome this

The confidence is weakening my mind
The laziness is collapsing my heart



FUCK YOU
I WILL NOT DEFEATED BY THIS 2 TINY THINGS  , EASILY

ONE DAY I GONNA SCREW YOU OUT
WITH MY MIND N MY HEART

now is 1.27 A.M.
(that's all )
god bless me

Now im enjoying the surfing of internet n im writing my blog as u all can see =.=

Nah ... I think my pc is started to have the emotion as the humans
Before it, i cant even start mozilla firefox
Click it twice n wait more than 15 minutes ....
Still not appear on my screen
So SUCK !!!!

After i downloaded a firefox 14....like that d software
reinstall it n it still not responding like before ...












AAHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!
so i unlocked my phone screen lock
open music player n listen the songs in my phone loudly !!!!!!!!!

Now u guess what??
something happened with ( i dunnoe )

Firefox started n appeared on my pc 's screen ...
NNNNNNNNIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

WTF is this ridiculous situition ???!!!!
Step 1 : open your phone 's music player
Step 2 : play whatever song u have in your phone
Step 3 : place your phone with playing music infront of your pc monitor
Step 4 : u can surf internet now as long as u can :)
???!!!!

LOL
my pc 's mozilla love to listen music to appear on my screen
LAUGH OUT LOUD
i still can't believe it man

Listening Bad Day by Daniel Powter n writing this post
feel like i can relax myself a little bit to prevent something ....??

:)
i gonna finish this before my bro see what i wrote in my blog 
CIAO~~~

In this few days ...
accidentally became a fan of a anime 
"The World God Only Knows"
 神のみぞ知るセカイ


Like the other anime of Japan 
it has seasons of its episodes 
the season 3 is coming soon 
waiting for it ( actually im still not complete season 2 ...haha )


Keima Katsuragi, an intelligent, gloomy teenager who is known on the Internet as "The God of Conquest" for his legendary skills to "conquer" any girl in Bishojo Games


Well, he doesnt has some super power but the spirit to conquer the all girls in the games...
His spirit became stronger in last episode in season 1 


以下乃是惰性所帶來的影響。。。
Copy&Paste :p
from Wikipedia ( luckily someone didnt shut it down for some sick privacy )


One day, out of pride, he accidentally accepts what he assumes to be a challenge for a Bishōjo game when in reality he has accepted a contract from a bumbling demoness named Elsie who asks for his help in capturing runaway spirits from Hell who are hiding in the hearts of girls. The only way to force the spirits out of the girls hearts is by replacing the spirits in the girls' hearts with himself (metaphorically speaking) by making the girls fall in love with him, much to Keima's horror. With the threat of death for both of them should he refuse, Keima has no choice but to help Elsie. Together with his intelligence and knowledge of the dating sim genre and Elsie's magical powers, Keima is about to embark on his greatest challenge.

 Elsie , a hell spirit huntress who is " younger sister " n partner of Keima...

Hey Hey


Excuse me ....

Your mother so fat ...

Ya yo chi can fun chui (sucked cantonese)

She got stucked...

ok thank you...

LOLZ WTF is this..??!!

  This is a Hong Kong comedy that it can't be more suck because it is the suckest ...=.=
Well , Hong Kong people doesn't have a humor sense and i know it , i went to there for a family trip ...

 
 Today is the first day of July in 2012 
my hardworking life will be started right now 
to make sure that i will have a good result in the final exam.......
WISH ME GOOD LUCK 


p/s : yesterday i just had "Sherlock Holmes : A game of shadows " the movie n it is awesome !!! especially the background music >< Hans Zimmer is a genius !!!


Just now i viewed my precious posts in this blog 
n i realized that  ... 

BLOGGER is the place that relaxes myself and it is the best compared to the twitter or facebook or other dumb social network...
BLOGGER is a little planet of mine , it's mine , a beautiful n peaceful place i can share at here ...
BLOGGER acts like a diary to me , it full of my stuff inside , never betray me ...

One last thing is it is a best way to make yourself fun and relax while you are reading your own posts :)


Good Night everyone 
Amen