Tony's Life

This post is a second post or episode or part of the last post , "My Third Holiday in 2011 year" ... So , This post 's title is "My Third Holiday in 2011 year : A Heartless Wednesday" as u can see upside this post ...




As the title of the post , I just had some sweet n maybe a little bit crazy(for me) memories on the Wednesday of my third holiday week in 2011 year... On the day , my primary school 's friend , Fatty had been planned a party that the people only from the same primary school , SJK(c) San YuK 2 which located at Rawang now....


Honestly , i also present myself in an another party but the party is not in this year n it was planned in 2008 years... The last time the party was succeed because many classmates just joined this party but this year 's party is worse than it ... i think u knows the reason ,right...?


Let me tell u a secret but it is almost known by every classmate until now... The secret is i love the top1 girl in my class ,class U ...She seems like an angel that fell from the heaven n she is a genius , she was taking the first place in my class n i just only took the place between 5 n 15...


Due to the secret is known by every classmate , till the Wednesday my teacher 's daughter , my classmate , Tan also asked me :"Did u still love her?! " Come on , man , just give me a moment at least 30 seconds . The question just made me almost fall from my chair which i was sitting on it n made my face quickly turns to red ....i tried to stop the red to full my face , i answered the question with "erm.....i dont know..." Ishh , I gonna kill myself today while i am writing this post because i have noticed something that it is : although i am a 16 years old secondary school student but my mind is still a annoying kid that always answer "maybe " or "i dont know " or "erm.........................................." 


Until today , i still have the feeling tell me that i still love the girl n i wanna tell Tan because she asked me this question n i still answered it ...I gonna do something before it 's too late....But the girl i love seems like she is going from me n tried to get out from my sight n my life....I think ....she hates me ....now .....


Before the UPSR exam finished(we were grade 6), she n i still were a friend that always talked the jokes about each other or took care of each other....At the time , my alot of classmate n I felt that she loved me n me too ....I WANNA BE MORE THAN FRIEND WITH HER!!!


So , i always tried to be alone with her but i thought that what if her mother , also my teacher (not Tan) saw us .... n we were trying the best in the UPSR exam then , i  just did what she doing to me now ...leave alone n keep a distance between me n her....




While we were the grade 5 , after the school we just walked from the classroom to each other 's destination , her was the teacher 's room n mine was the school gate because she is my teacher 's daughter n i was a customer of my school bus...She asked me did someone like her or some stuff like that because i forgot a part ....then i was shocked n tried to cover my feeling to her n said : Maybe the other people from another class but dont forget our class too ... 



Then she answered me : oh ...really? So , i reached teacher's room ..see ya tomorrow .." i said : okok , bye bye ...After a few steps i took , i just talked to myself :the guy who loves you is me ....Then , i just continued my walking...If i am right , i think she followed me that time n heard that....omg i cant imagine it ....


It will be a shocked news to her....I felt so sorry to her until today im writing this post , i still like that...Maybe it made her KEEPING a distance to me even facebook ...i added her as a friend but a few months later i cant find her from my friend list ....i think that she still hates me ....


Now this post made me wanna call Tan , a only contact between me n her ....tell her that I 
was wrong n I m sorry ......


Every time i remember her , the whole things between me n her just appear n it suffered me ...every time .....every where ...